DO 2608 5/90

1. (Dad praying:) Does Maria have to be afflicted like this, Lord? She's so faithful. (Prophecy:) "Yes, I have many lessons yet to teach her." Well, I guess we just have to have faith.

2. What lessons, Lord? What lessons does she have to learn? It seems she's learned so much already, & she has suffered so much already. Amen, Lord, she has lessons yet to learn. Thank You Jesus! Praise the Lord! Did you get that? (Maria: That I have many lessons yet to learn?) Yes.

3. (Maria: I wonder which lessons He means?) I don't know‚ Honey. I don't know why you should have to suffer like this. Jesus‚ Jesus, Jesus, have mercy, Lord! Have mercy on Thy handmaiden, Lord, in Jesus' name. Touch her. Heal her. In Jesus' name! Please have mercy! She suffers so, Lord. We ask Thee in the Name of Jesus. We resist you, Satan, in Jesus' name! Deliver her, Lord, in Jesus' name! You promised, Lord‚ "If any two of you shall agree as touching anything that they ask of the Father in My Name, I will do it."—Mat.18:19. She needs to be delivered‚ Lord‚ in Jesus' name! Precious Lord, have mercy! Touch & deliver her, Lord, in Jesus' name! In Jesus' name!

4. (Prophecy:) "I have many lessons that she must learn." Thank You Lord! Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus! Amen. Well, I must admit, I don't like it‚ but I'm sure the Lord knows what He is doing. I'm sure He knows what's best. It seems like an awful price to pay, a lot of suffering for whatever you have to learn. (Prophecy:) "That I may make her a better vessel." Thank You Lord! Hallelujah! Amen, Lord. Thank You Jesus, Lord!

5. I don't know what you have to suffer so much for, Honey. I don't know why you have to be made so much better. Have you any idea why? (Maria: I know I need to be a lot better. I've got a long way to go.) Oh God, have mercy on her! Have mercy on Thy poor handmaiden that suffers so much. Lord Jesus! Lord, give her surcease. Please give her relief, Lord. Please ease off a little & make it a little easier, Lord, in Jesus' name. Thank You Lord! (Maria: Help me to at least be able to do the work that I need to do, Lord.—In Jesus' name.)

6. Amen, Lord. Well, I don't know what else to do. I've poured out my heart & I've wept for you. I've suffered. (Maria: I'm doing all right, Honey, praise the Lord. As long as I can do the work I need to do, I'm doing fine.) Well, maybe it makes you more serious about your work. Do you think? (Maria: Amen. I certainly only use my eyes for the things I have to use them for. It has to be pretty important.)

7. Lord have mercy, in Jesus' name. Deliver Thy handmaiden! Praise You Jesus. Thank You Lord! (Prophecy:) "But if I deliver her I shall not be able to teach her all the lessons of mercy & longsuffering that I have to teach her." OK, Lord. Amen. Thank You Lord! (Maria: Thank You Lord!) Amen, Lord, I would not have made her suffer. I would not have let her suffer so much & so long, Lord. I would deliver her now. But if that's Your Will, Lord, if You're trying to yet teach her something that she needs to know, You know best, Lord‚ Thy Will be done. Have Thy way, in Jesus' name.

8. Help me, Lord! Help me be able to bear it. I suffer, too, Lord. I do suffer‚ too, Lord, for her & with her in her suffering, in Jesus' name. "That the God of all grace Who hath called us unto His Eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after ye have suffered awhile, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you."—1Pet.5:10.

9. Amen, praise the Lord! I almost get a little bit angry sometimes. I'm sorry, Lord, forgive me. But surely you aren't being chastened, Honey, surely you don't have to be rebuked. (Maria: Well, I know I have to be kept in line & close to Him. "Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now have I kept Thy Word."—Psa.119:167.)

10. Honey, you're the most wonderful & the purest of all the people I know! (Maria: Honey, I've got the same problems as everybody else.) Lord, please forgive me, but I just don't know how You could be so hard on her. (Maria: Oh, Honey, it's not that hard. I just get a little impatient when I have a hard time doing my work, but I'm getting it done. Thank the Lord!) Lord‚ Jesus, I can't understand why You've let her suffer this way, Lord, suffer so long. But, Lord, I just have to trust Thee that You know what You're doing. But‚ Lord, I put her in Thy hands, in Jesus' name. These are Thy eyes, Lord. If You want to afflict them to work out some kind of benefit, Lord, Thy Will be done, in Jesus' name. (Maria: Amen‚ Jesus‚ You know what's best.)

11. I'm sorry, Honey. I wish I could heal you. (Maria: It's made me slow down!) If I could heal you I would, but I don't seem to have the gift of healing. (Maria: I've already learned a lot of lessons.) Maybe you ought to ask Techi to pray for you. I think maybe she has the gift of healing. (Maria: Let's continue to pray for Techi against those daily headaches. Poor little girl.) Jesus help her. Deliver her, Lord, from that‚ in Jesus' name.

12. (Prophecy:) "I have permitted her, too‚ to suffer that she may learn the lessons that I need to teach her to draw her closer to Me." Thank You Lord! I thank the Lord that I don't have to suffer so much pain as you people have. Thank God I haven't had headaches & other pains. Most of my afflictions lately have not been pain, much pain. I don't think I could have stood much pain except for bowel troubles. They're not a lot of pain, they just leave me very very weak. But anyhow, He's delivered me of that now. It's a miracle! Thank You Lord! It went on so long, but maybe I learned the lesson He was trying to teach me!

13. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus! Lord, please heal these that I love, these loved ones, these ones close to me, Mama & Techi, Lord. Thank You Lord that You're not having to make David suffer. Deliver & strengthen all those You love, Lord‚ who are afflicted.—In Jesus' name!

14. Lord, these are those that suffer for You, they work hard for You, Jesus, & make Thy Work & Thy Words possible. Have mercy on them, Lord! Touch & heal them‚ Lord, in Jesus' name. Lord God! They're Thy faithful handmaidens, Lord. In Jesus' name, please help & heal them. In Jesus' name, Lord! They've been so faithful, Lord, they work so hard. Why don't You heal them, Lord? Jesus, Jesus, Jesus! In Jesus' name, Lord. Have mercy, Lord! Touch & heal, in Jesus' name.

15. (Prophecy:) "Because of these afflictions I have kept them close to Me that they may seek My face continually for their afflictions." Thank You Jesus! Hallelujah! (Maria: Beautiful! Thank You Jesus!) Lord, You know what's best. Thy Will be done. Have Thy way. I guess I would not have the heart to afflict them so. I would want to deliver them & heal them & make it easier for them, Lord. But apparently You're making them suffer these things so they may learn lessons, in Jesus' name. Amen. Thank You Lord! Praise You Jesus! Thank You Lord!

16. Amen, Lord. Have mercy. Oh‚ Jesus‚ have mercy! Although I have suffered many afflictions, You've delivered me out of them all. But please have mercy on these little ones. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus! Please help them! Lord Jesus, help them! Have mercy on them! Please don't let them suffer any more than they have to. Please!—In Jesus' name! Thank You Lord! Amen, Lord! Do it, Lord! Do it, Lord, Jesus, please do it! Please have mercy on all of these little ones that You have used to pull me through, Lord. Thank You Lord!—In Jesus' name!

17. (Maria: It's so wonderful to know that there is a definite purpose for it.) Amen, Lord. You have done the same with me, Lord, to make me more serious, Lord, & to seek Thy face more. To know that but for Thee, Lord, I would be dying, my fate would be death if I were not afflicted to seek Thy face.—In Jesus' name. Thank You Lord! Praise You Lord!

18. Amen, Lord! Amen! OK, well do it, Lord. Do it, Lord, please. (Maria: Do what?) Do it, Lord! Do what You're trying to do so they can learn & be delivered‚ in Jesus' name. Thank You Lord! Amen! (Maria: Amen!) XXXXXXX! (Maria: So sweet‚ Honey! Thank you for your prayers!)

19. Amen, Lord! You're going to do it! You didn't say when, Lord. You didn't promise immediately, but You're going to do it‚ in Jesus' name. When it's Your time‚ Lord, You're going to do it, in Jesus' name. I would do it now, but You know what's best. You know what they have to do, in Jesus' name, amen. XXXXXXX!

20. It's not the way I would do it, but the Lord knows better than I. I don't think you deserve it! (Maria: Oh, Honey, it's good for me! I know it's good for me.) I don't know why you should need humbling. (Maria: Oh, Honey‚ of course I need to be humble. That's what the Lord said one time.) I think you're the most humble person on Earth. (Maria: Oh, Honey‚ the Lord knows we could all be much more humble than we are.) I don't know what you have to be proud about except the Lord made you a Queen, my Queen. Of course, that's a lot of responsibility.

21. You know, I never wanted to be a leader. I don't know why anybody ever wants to be a leader or a president or prime minister or a king. It's such a big job with such a great responsibility & so many problems. So I don't know why anybody would seek such an office! It's so difficult.—Like that cartoon where Gorbachev is saying: "Don't worry about anybody taking my office!—Who in the World would want it?"

22. Anybody that would want this job must be a little bit out of their mind. (Maria: I certainly don't. I feel the same way.) It's one of the toughest jobs in the whole World, with so much responsibility & so much blame if I don't do it right. Oh, God, help me, in Jesus' name‚ help us!

23. (Prophecy:) "She must suffer many of these afflictions for the sake of her Father, that she would be a blessing to David." My God! That's worse than ever, that you suffer these things for me! (Maria: Well, Honey‚ I think when the Lord says I'm suffering for you, you're symbolic of the Lord & the Lord's Work.) I don't think it's fair that you have to suffer for my sake, but it does make me pray. It does drive me to the Lord. It does really make me suffer, but I guess I deserve it. I'm sure I deserve it! I deserve it far more.

24. "He hath not caused us to suffer according to our iniquities nor afflicted us according to our sins."—Psa.103:10. "Before I was afflicted I went astray. But in my affliction I cried unto the Lord & He saved me out of all of my troubles."—Psa.119:67; 34:6.

25. Lord, I don't know if You want to do it, but it seems I could suffer this affliction more than my poor, poor Queen. (Maria: No, Honey, I wouldn't want you to!) I think, Lord, it might be easy to suffer it myself, except that I need to be able to read, Lord, to do all these things. (Maria: Honey, I'm the one that is supposed to be learning the lessons, so I'm the one who has to suffer it.) Apparently I'm the one who is suffering. I'm suffering for you. I can hardly stand to see you suffer.

26. Except for the Lord's Love & mercy I would be bitter. (Maria: Honey, it's not that bad, really.) I'm tempted to be bitter. Sometimes I'm tempted to be bitter that you suffer. Remember that time I asked the Lord to give me your affliction & I immediately got that fever? And I was so sick‚ but at least you got delivered & better. (Maria: Well‚ Honey‚ this time don't you dare do that‚ because I'm the one that is supposed to suffer it to learn the lessons. Anyway, it isn't actually so bad.) Oh, Jesus, help me. I do need good eyes to do all the work I have to do. Thank You that You have not afflicted me that way & that I can do my job. But, Lord, she needs her eyes too!

27. Why did You let this happen to her, Lord, when she needs her eyes to see? (Prophecy:) "I have allowed this affliction to fall upon her that she may teach others to do the things that they need to do to help her." Hallelujah! Thank You Lord!—In Jesus' name, amen! Amen! You're having to suffer, Honey, that others might learn. You're having to suffer that others might be taught to help carry your load & to have sympathy & compassion for you. Hallelujah! TYJ!

28. Thank You Lord for these things that You're showing us. They're not easy to take, I must admit. But if You say they're good for us, we have to receive them & thank You that You know best, & that You're teaching us what we need to learn. "When my soul fainted within me, I remembered the Lord."—Jonah 2:7. And sometimes I've fainted & I have not been very receptive. I haven't been very yielded to the Lord's letting you suffer. It seems of all people that deserve to suffer it's me! (Maria: Honey‚ you've suffered so much in your life & I never have! I have to have a little bit to see what it's like! You know, the Word says that we all have to suffer. If you want to be classed in the "saint" category you have to suffer. [Phil.1:29; 2Tim.2:12; 1Pet.1:10])

29. Yes‚ I have suffered. I must admit, I have suffered. Those years in evangelistic work with my Mother I really was deprived, in need of a wife. But then He gave one to me & I suffered that too. My God! My Lord Jesus, thank You for those years, Lord. They taught me many things, in Jesus' name. Thank You for the years on the road & the years of Maria, Lord. And the many things we suffered. My God, Lord, I did suffer, I did suffer. Thank You Lord! We did suffer, but we also conquered! And we obeyed & we did what we needed to do. Thank You Lord!

30. We left & we moved & we became pilgrims & strangers from country to country. And it really wasn't easy, but You kept us, Lord, in spite of everything. Thank You Lord! Hallelujah! Thank You Lord for those beautiful Words from You! I can't say that I was very willing to suffer. Sometimes I was bitter, Lord, forgive me. But You always knew best, & we're still here in spite of everything, TYJ!

31. (Maria: That was beautiful, Honey!) No‚ I don't deserve any credit because I'm reluctant, I'm bitter. (Maria: No, you're not really bitter, Honey! It doesn't last long.) And I'm complaining & murmuring about how He lets you suffer. (Maria: Look at all the good things the Lord is bringing out of it.) Honey, you're so good & so wonderful! I don't think you deserve it, but He says He is teaching you lessons. (Maria: Amen, Honey, that's really encouraging.) I guess you don't deserve it, but you just need it. (Maria: Amen! I've learned a lot already!) Amen. You're making progress, Honey! I guess I have to make progress too, to be willing to see you suffer.

32. My God‚ how can You let her suffer so, Lord? (Crying) Lord, how can You let her suffer so?—When she is so innocent, Lord, & she's so good! So willing to suffer. How could You let her suffer so?—My Love, Lord, my Queen, the one I love the most; how can You let her suffer? (Tongues & Prophecy:) "Because I have chosen her & I will let her suffer that she might be purified & purged & made white‚ & that she may be worthy of the honours that I shall yet bestow upon her!" Hallelujah! Thank You Jesus! "Worthy to be My Queen." Thank You Jesus!—In Jesus' name! Hallelujah!

33. He has great things in store for you, Honey, you're going to be a great Queen over much of the Earth! Hallelujah! And you must suffer that you may be great. Thank You Jesus! You're going to suffer what others have suffered that you may be their Queen, & have compassion upon them. Hallelujah! Thank You Lord!—In Jesus' name, amen!

34. It's so beautiful! I see pictures of you ruling & reigning over so many‚ over so much‚ for having suffered! There's a Scripture about having suffered, "If ye suffer with Him‚ ye shall also reign with Him."—2Tim.2:12. Because you have suffered you're also going to reign, having understood their sufferings & had compassion upon them. You're going to be a great Queen, Honey, such a great Queen to rule over so many that you love, who love you, who will love you.

35. Isn't that wonderful? Don't you think that's beautiful? (Maria: Praise the Lord! It sounds like a lot of hard work!) Of course it is, but you'll love it! Just like you love it now!—Right? (Maria: Well, yes‚ I guess so. I guess I love it because...) You like it, you love it! (Maria: I like it because I know I'm doing the right thing.) Because you know it needs to be done.

36. My God, if you only knew what's in store for you! Because you have been faithful here in a few things, He is going to make you ruler over many many things‚ many people, many areas, many countries!—Luk.16:10. Hallelujah! Thank You Lord! Because you were found faithful, & you have suffered that you might reign!—In Jesus' name!

37. I know you don't even want to, but He wants you to. Amen? He wants you to because He needs you, Sweetheart, to help Him rule the Earth. You've been faithful here now in a few things, & He is going to make you a ruler over many things. I don't even think that I will be worthy of so much.

38. (Maria: I'm just going to sit down at your feet.) No, no, no! (Maria: Yes, Honey.) No, you'll do it. (Maria: I don't want to do it without you. I'm just going to sit on your lap or on your footstool or something.) No‚ you will have more glory than I, because you accomplished more & have done more & suffered more & ruled better. (Maria: No, I don't think so, Honey. You're just being modest.) I think I'm going to be sitting in the background. (Maria: No, Honey, I want to sit beside you, OK?) OK‚ you can sit beside me. (Maria: I just want to sit beside you!) Amen! Beside me. (Maria: But down a little lower.) But doing most of the work just like you're doing now. (Mama giggling.) You are! (Maria: Only if you tell me what to do...)

39. You're doing most of the work right now! (Maria: I'm doing the deacon work & you're doing the elder work.) I don't even have to tell you, you just do it. (Maria: Like I told some of our leaders, you're the elder & I'm the deacon & I'm carrying out your instructions.) Amen, Honey. Praise the Lord! But I think that's a lot harder. (Maria: I'll be your deacon.) I think that's a lot harder. I think that's much harder work. (Maria: Maybe, but it's not as much responsibility.) Because as an elder, I just sit there & read & pray & receive the Word of the Lord. You have to do the hard work. You have to do the organisation & the supervision & handle personnel & all the hard jobs. (Maria: Yes, but I don't have all that responsibility because I get my orders from you, & you have the responsibility to hear from the Lord.) That's easy. That's the easiest job of all.

40. Mine is the easiest job of all! I've always said that. I'm just a messenger boy & all I have to do is pass on the Messages from the Lord that He gives me. (Maria: I'm glad that's easy for you, but it's hard for me.) Oh, Honey, you do wonderfully, beautifully! What's hard for you? (Maria: Well, I guess everything...) You just pass on the Word of the Lord. So what is so hard? (Maria: Well, it's hard work for me to get things from the Lord & to pass them on clearly.)

41. You don't even have to get them from the Lord, you can get them from me. (Maria: That's what I mean. It's easier just to get it from you.) All right‚ so, do it! Thank the Lord! Amen! (Maria: That's why I want to sit beside you in your throne‚ Honey.—Close to you, where we can counsel together.) You are! (Maria: I'd even rather hide behind you in your robes so nobody will see me. I don't like to be seen, Honey, you know that.) That you cannot do, I'm sorry. (Maria: I want to hide behind you & I don't want to be seen.) Well, you have to be in order to rule.

42. You have to be seen in order to rule, Honey. That's a part of your sacrifice‚ it's a part of your suffering to have to be seen & bear the burden of leadership, bear the burden of guidance. Thank You Jesus! Hallelujah! Praise You Lord! Amen, amen! XXXXXXX! (Maria: Amen, thank You Lord!) I love you! (Maria: I love you, my King!) Hallelujah! Thank You Lord! Thank You Jesus! Praise You Lord, in Jesus' name, amen!

43. You will reign & you will rule over much of the Earth because you have been faithful! "She who hath suffered much shall also reign much." Now there's a Scripture like that‚ what is it? (Maria: "If you suffer with Me, you shall also reign with Me."—2Tim.2:12.) Exactly. You have suffered much, so you shall also reign much over all. Thank You Lord! Hallelujah!

44. Amen, I think we need to go to sleep. Thank You, Lord, for this beautiful night of revelation. I love you‚ Honey! You're going to be wonderful! You're going to be my Queen in my Kingdom in the portion of the Earth the Lord gives unto us. Hallelujah! Thank You Lord! Because we have been faithful in that which was little, He will give us that which is very great.—Luk.16:10; 19:17. TYJ!—In Jesus' name, amen!

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