MAMA'S PRAYER TO BE ABLE TO EXPRESS THE LORD'S WORDS AND LOVE MORE CLEARLY!      Maria #247       DO 2964  1/95
By Maria

         1. When I try to react to the beautiful prophecies that the Lord gives individuals or for specific situations, I'm at a loss for words to express the wonder of them. It certainly is a wonderful, precious, priceless gift to hear so directly from Jesus with such love and tenderness and understanding about every detail of our lives.
         2. I hate to even try to describe it, since when I do I make it sound so common and so paltry in comparison with what it really is, but that's my job, to try to express things. I feel that I could never begin to sufficiently express the wonder and beauty and love of the Lord. Even if I were gifted with eloquence above all other human eloquence, it still would fall far short of any ability to adequately describe it.
         3. I am praying for at least a little more of the gift of expressing these things, because I need to be able to pass on ideas more clearly, more powerfully and more persuasively. I need to be able to move people. I need to be able to incite them to action, to arouse them to do something, to influence them for the good, to stir them to produce, to help them operate more scripturally, to motivate them to progress. And most of all, I need to show them God's love. I need to describe His tender care and compassion to them as I have seen it and experienced it through Dad and through those around me.
         4. I want so much to be able to do that. I want the Lord to help me to break through the barriers and obstacles that seem to hinder me. I'm sure when Moses said, "I am not eloquent" (Exo.4:10), he felt the same frustrations and impediments as I am feeling. There's so much to say, so much to express, but how do you do it?
         5. (Mama crying:) Oh Lord, please help it to come out so I can do You justice--just a little bit, at least. I don't know why You didn't pick someone better able to express themselves. Even then, no matter how wonderful that would be, it still wouldn't even begin to come anywhere near expressing what You are and what You mean and what You do. At least it would be better, but as it is, not only do I not have any natural eloquence, but I'm hindered by obstacles and blockages and obstructions to even what I should normally be able to say in the natural. Even the Word that's gone through my brain--I know it's there, but it doesn't come out when I want to pray prayers, or I want to comfort people, or I want to instruct them.
         6. Oh Jesus, I really want to be a better channel, a better vessel. I want to be able to hear more clearly from You, and just as important, I want to be able to express what I hear, what I think, and what I feel. You said You'd give me Your thoughts, and Dad said he'd give me his thoughts, but then I have to articulate them in words. Please, Lord, give me the words.
         7. I don't like to be crying because it hurts my eyes and gives me headaches, but I just can't say this without crying because this is my deepest longing and my most earnest desire, that I will be able to show Your love to others. And Lord, You know that in order to show them that love, I have to tell them, because I can't take them in my arms and I can't touch them and feel them, caress them and heal them. So I have to do it through the words You give me. I know You try to give me words, but it's so hard for me to get them.
         8. Please, please help me, Lord. I'm sorry if I'm murmuring and if I sound ungrateful, but I really could do better for You. But I need more effectiveness in expressing myself, in communicating, in interpreting. I don't want these things for myself, I just want them for Thy people. I'm not asking to be erudite or intellectual, I just want to be like You, Jesus.
         9. The Words You spoke were so simple, yet so clear and so beautiful, so loving and so profound, so powerful, so life-giving and so deep, so thorough, so complete, with nothing missing.--Everything there, nothing that shouldn't be there, just enough and not too much.--So pure, so clear and clean, unadulterated with anything that would have hurt them, confused them, or covered them up, completely uncorrupted, genuine, wholehearted, tried and proven.
         10. Lord, if I'm even a little bit representative of You here on Earth, I need to speak words like You do. At first thought, it seems presumptuous for me to say this, for me to ask. Nevertheless, You promised so many times in Your Word that if we open our mouths You would fill them; if we'd ask for bread You wouldn't give us a stone; if we'd seek we'd find. You said You would put the Words in our mouths, You would give us Your mind and Your nature. It seems that You do want to, so that's what gives me the faith to ask. Certainly, Lord, You'll help me, because surely You, much more than I, want Your people to drink of waters that are clear and unclouded.
         11. Oh Jesus, I need Your help so much! I've been given so much love! I've been overwhelmed by love in every way for my whole life. I have to do something with it, I can't just keep it. I have to share it, and the only way I can share it is by communicating it in print. But how can I get down on paper all of Your great great love that You've showered upon me? How can I verbalize it? Please give me the thoughts. Please give me the words.
         12. Help my precious loved ones to pray for me that You will pour on me a special anointing for this great responsibility. Or if You have already, Lord, I pray that I'll be able to receive it and I'll be able to break through the barriers, the obstacles, and overcome these hindrances and walls, to be able to rise above them and soar to greater heights where I can fulfill the anointing, lay hold on the power, the mantle, and make it work for me and for You and for others.
         13. In the meantime, I'm determined I'm going to just do whatever I can, however rough and incomplete it may be, however unpolished or disjointed, however mediocre, or however much it falls short of expressing the way You really are and what Your love is. I'll just keep doing what I'm doing, and do what I can to the best of my ability. That's all I can do unless You help me to do more.
         14. Forgive me, Lord, if I'm complaining. I just want to be able to show what You are in a better way. I don't want to confine You and restrict You to just these few meager, stumbling words. At least I know Thy Spirit can enlarge them and expand them and multiply them, so please do that, Lord. No matter how inadequate my words are, Your Spirit can empower them. And if that's the way You prefer to do it, there's nothing I can do about it, and I'll just be thankful that I can say anything at all. I'm so thankful that for some reason You've chosen to use me to help Your people.
         15. I love You, Jesus, You know I do. I just would so much like to have people see You the way You are, to see what Your love is really like. Well, Lord, thank You for listening! I know You hear me and I know You're going to do whatever is best for me and for Your work. I'm Yours forever.
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         16. So, dear Family, I really would like it very much if you all would pray that the Lord would help me to be a clear channel and to hear from Him and to be able to express it.


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